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Im just a illusion..
Nothing special..
Im just.. useless... thats all..

random post

^^.. today is 29th december 2009..
Today is a happy day!! It really does.. for me!!
RM 50.. + RM250.. worth it.. vv

I think im insane!!! hahaha...

Things never change good as we think it negatively and bad..
Is the mind who controlling us.. our own mind..
Analyse.. think clearly.. be confident.. are the things i need to have..
^^.. since its over.. why shud i keep worry bout it?!?. enjoy my life and experience it is the main thing..
everything will be fine.. happy go lucky! jiayou to me and u all guys!!! ^^

坦诚与面对.. 是一念之差.. 还是像天那么大.. 难以捉摸?

或许
我还是那个样子
无法改变自己
那受纵容
要人宽恕
自私野蛮的性格

一直一直挣扎的心
仿佛无奈着告诉我
不该这样
不要那样
要勇敢地面对

在我眼里
看见别人的一举一动
仅仅向我暗示着一些我应该有的态度
而不是另一种态度


但
我还是失败了
唉..
失落的失败者
几时才能站起来?
我不知道
也不想知道
只想上天
让我有那个勇气面对跟坦诚

CHEAP BOOKS FOR SALE!!

Well guys.. i posted up the pic of those ref books so tat u all can see which wan u all wan.. ^^
For :
-physic and maths.. those ref books almost bout rm 40 PER BOOK.. yet..i offer rm 40 for the WHOLE SET...
-chem is rm 45..
All set + past yr paper!!!

p/s : The price can be discussed based on the books u want.. ^^

CHEAP REF AND EXE BOOKS FOR SALE!!

EXAM OFFICIALLY OVER!!

I have many STPM exercise and reference books..
Pengajian AM (reference)

Physic (Exercises/reference/past year papers)

Chemisty ( Exercise book for physical/ reference books/past year papers..)

Maths ( Exercises for model papers/Exercises for every chapters/Past year papers/Reference book)

Don hesitate to buy it.. cox some of it i will offer 3/4 or even HALF PRICE!!
Guys.. who wana buy those book pls drop a msg to me.. ^^...

* if anyone who wana buy all books for certain subject.. den past yr paper for that subject i might giving out free!!! ^^

Last post til 10 DECEMBER 2009

sighs..
now.. is october..
1st..im wondering.. how im gona live after this month... or what im gona do after my big 'war'..
my heart is like a vase.. spoilt.. and broken.. once getting trial result.. its was totally same like my midterm result.. 2 pass 2 failed.. SIGHS again~~ i think my teacher kinda feel shocked and disappointed on me..
Thinking.. why ppl can get such such.. CRAZY.. BIZZARE result but i cant?.. why ppl play more than me but they can get good results than me?.. aiks.. sometimes.. i wish that 100% it was a fate.. a fate than ppl are born with different genes and something called BRAIN heritage.. so that i can convince myself.. 'OH.. Izit liddat?.. No choice.. heritage and fate dislike me!! )...den i wont blame over myself... hahahha...

2nd... I wonder when is my deathline.. haha.. recently there are too many disaster happened around... last few days ago.. mum suddenly asked me that after 40 or 50 yrs... how is my generation and next generation life?
10 yrs ago.. a thief robbed a woman's bag... kinda small case.. and doesnt cause any big deals for us.. but now.. a thief snatch ppl's bag and results a death case... omg... kinda horrible.. and serious..
That's why mum said.. until my age getting older... the society is getting worser.. human are getting complex.. and hard to predict who are the good one and bad one.. SIGHS AGAIN~~~

Lolx..
i think.. after this week.. im not gona online for a long long time..
So guys.. don miss me ya!! (lolx... sorry if im ss'ing myself.. )
and.. wish me luck for u all and for myself.. GAMBATEH!! STPM student.. jia you!!!
May god will bless us and give us strength to continue our journey and strive for the best!!! ^^
Chaoz

Sentimental + tired + enjoyed moment~~

Yesterday... kinda sentimental.. becox weykiat has left us to oversea for further study..
10.20am... was his departure time.. saw him walking alone towards the departure entrance.. waving his hand towards us for the last time.. and saying goodbye to us.. ^^.. well.. kinda sad..
but.... thx to him.. that let us 9 pal gang bonded together.. 7 of us.. alex.. ivy.. ss.. ls.. hs.. mich.. very enjoyed that day.. we went to manhanttan fish market for our 'breakfast'.. imagine.. 7 ppl... shared a platter of 2 servings... haha... the employee kinda surprised when we shared that platter together..
After that.. feel wana watch movie.. too bad... the cinema crowded with ppl.. sienz lor liddat.. gona cancelled our plan for movie.. then we went for redbox... rm 24 per pax.. still expensive for me.. but with a bunch of ppl sing k.. worth lor~~~ (stupid titbits rm 9.. soooooo expensive... )
'Bout 5pm.. when we wana leave for steamboat.. pity ivy.. her footwear had spoilt.. so gona buy a new one.. kekez.. well vy.. although is rm 60.. yet it so suites u.. don sad lar har~~ kiss kiss for u.. haha..
Suppose we decided to eat Steamboat buffet at Restaurant yuen.. but.... but... but... u know larh... its public holiday... + its cheap... + its famous... that y... soooooooo crowded that place with bunch of ppl waiting outside like its having big 50% discount sale.. swt... no choice lor... back to klang... eat steamboat at bbk.. not bad la.. bcox we can laugh loudly or play crazily at thr... (kinda paiseh bcox everyone who having steamboat peep us or mayb thought us r crazy.. lolx..)
What a tiring day.. but we really enjoyed it... ^^... thanks guys.. lolx.. love u all and friendship forever!!...

*p/s: for wk.. take care ya buddy at thr.. lolx.. although u r not around m'sia but..i still let opportunity for u to tease me la.. wakaka.. once bak to m'sia mux jio limteh.. ITS A MUST!! muahahaha...

我 期 待 着



盼 望 着



渴 望 着



奢 望 着



一 个 形 容 词



的




一 个 名 词

Don read.. again.. lolx..

lolx.. im happy tis few weeks.. mab bcox i aledi passed those club things to juniors.. althought life kinda a bit dull.. yet there is a big war waiting for us!! TRIAL AND STPM!! strive for it guys!! don wait.. like me.. lembik aje.. haha.. I stil don hav the mood to study.. yet im trying... lolx..
Well.. stil got 4 months to go.. den we gona graduate.. ish.. i bu sher der.. u.... all!! lolx..
Teasing... Arguing.. Angrying.. Misunderstanding.. Loitering.. Studying together wif moody mode.. all those funny funny jokes and acts.. I will miss for sure..
Sentimental ~~~ lolx.. nthg to say edi.. haha.. enjoy for 4 months.. wohoo!!

Finally.. our power.. strength.. ability.. and job had passed to our lovely juniors..
AGM over one by one.. Its a relief for us seniors not busy for koko again..
Yet.. Internal affair between juniors just started..
Differ gangs.. differ opinions.. differ thoughts make much difference..
This is the thing we are learning from the start..
Yet. for you all.. this is just the beginning.. Stop arguing whether you got or not for that post you dreamt of.. but do your very best to prove your existence.. your ability.. and your power..
Please be realistic that you arent the best of the best.. but trying to be the best out of the best..
Instead of mumbling and complaining why this.. why that.. remember that when u pointing 1 finger to others.. there's still 4 fingers pointing yourself.. for those who acting infront of me.. and 'kilat' ppl's shoes.. Thanks for done that stupid act.. Yet remember 1 thing... the post you got.. the ability that we giving you that place.. we dare to give you.. we also dare to kick you off from it..So You should feel grateful to enter this big family.. Not everyone has this chance to do so..
Complaining who been biased.. who do this and that.. Such stupid act u also dare to do.. I really feel disappoint to you then.. Feel sorry that i think you arent the understanding ones now.. just because of such post and changed everything.. including your beloved attitude towards your respected seniors.. All ruined.. and make us changed our opinion towards you..

Lastly, for ppl who did not get it.. Life is aint all about power and post that you having.. but is the experience and true frienship you gaining and obtaining through a new circle of life.. Although u dont have it.. yet what you had gained definitely not less than others.. It is true that sometimes.. Wealth and compete with others really make ones life suffer for hatred and being hatred.. Why dont we be the normal ones and stand still as we dint so anything wrong and we gained everything in our life?.. Be strong.. and be brave.. Be proud with what you had done.. and NOT ARROGANT!!!

污染的世界

未来的我都不知道会变得怎么样呢?
没勇气去面对只好能用另一个观点去接收

世界上最可怕的.. 不是肉食动物捕追撕裂猎物的肉..
而是人类勾心斗角..争权势的画面..

谣言谎话流传一天..就会制造出十种不一样的版本..
面对一个不认识的陌生人.. 要用十种不一样的方法去试探..

人.. 往往都不晓得或甚至不认为自己是卑鄙...邪恶..假装的人..
他们的每一个举动..行动..思想..都已把自己的目的显露出来..
当他们在说话时.. 每一个答案..回答已将本性告诉我... 你有目的的..

对于真诚待人的人.. 谢谢您那么真实..那么可爱地无望回报地对待每个人..
而给贪图权势..态度极端到无法沟通.. 想要往上爬却不做事的他人.. 对不起.. 你不配当一个上等人.. 只能当个下等人..或者是个被人看贬的家伙..
要人在您的脚下.. 先衡量您有多'重'..好让人自动地服于您..
要讲别人的坏话.. 不妨看看你留下给别人的印象.. 是否也是这么地差..
还有..... 不要一直说... 但是!!!!!!!!!


要改变别人.. 先改变自己!!!! 不是别人为你而改变!!! 若要人顺从你.. 或钦佩你.. 不妨一下你自己吧!!!!
我已懒得说了.. 掰!!!

Craz War?!?.. lolx..

well..tis morning 1230.. guess whr stil am i?.. cleaning susin's hs lor.. lolx.. after such craz party at thr... how craz was it?.. imagine.. 3 ppl burfday we celebrated together.. we sang burfday song.. asked them make wish... bla bla.. ok.. this is the fun part.. bite candle.. they believed the cake that made by butter creamy creamy stuff costs rm 60.. kenot play oh~ wana eat de lor.. ~~ lolx.. the ceremony... kinda from a nice warming normal burfday party.. becames wild and gone craz!! omg.. Once we shout 1.. 2.. 3 to let them bite the candle.. then a 'PIAK' sounds so loud.. we can see that the 3 guys like stunted.. omg.. wat happened now?... we been played?!?.. lolx.. they started to become crazy and finding victims to target... zzz.. Its mad.. reli mad!! who gets nearer.. who wil be the victim... kinda pity for some ppl like cguan.. edmund.. hc.. and others.. been bullied by 18 grasses's hand full wif cream.. paiseh la guys.. Oh ya.. not to forget... cheng and kthai.. aiks.. it is a wrong decision when they started to hide.. yet.. they oso kena... from the grasses again.. haha.. The floor.. our face.. clothes.. hair.. all CReam.. and very oily lar wei!! but we stil enjoyed.. like fighting tiger in the cage.. swt.. After all starts to calm down.. we came out wif new cake again.. but tis time is real cake.. can eat de.. no bluff.. they make a wish.. joked around.. and blow candle.. Aunty (susin's mum) also wish us all get 4 flats in STPM.. Wohoo.. thx aunty!!.. The ceremony continues with 'yamseng' with CHAMPAGNE... (lolx.. is sparkling juice la..).. chit chatz.. jokes around.. Bbq some~~ already 1200am.. Everyone seems tired.. and some of us helped sin cleaned the house lor.. bla bla bla.. 1230am jor.. Liddat the craz jungle war ended with sentimental feelings..
Well.. Specially dedicated to hsien.. yy.. and cyau.. HAPPY BURFDAY YA.. and.. mte members.. thanks for joined together and this time we can say the attendance is quite memuskan.. haha..

p/s : i wonder shud i put the movie that we took yday?.. lolx.. seems kinda very funny..

Life.. aint easy as you think!!

Life.. aint easy as you think..
We always afraid of being the fail ones.. but who knows we wont fail if we dint experience it thoroughly?..
Ask your heart... Izit wealthy, fame, glamorous, posts really important for you and will make your life perfect than owning a bunch of pals and gangs that willing to strive and work together?..
Even stupid one will choose the 2nd one.. yea.. wealthy.. fame.. those thing.. really do make us satisfy sometimes.. but it wont last longer... Yet an experience.. that faced thru obstacles.. problems.. dilemma in handling teachaers.. quarelling with friends etc etc.. is a thingy.. that we will never forget in our life.. forever..
Taking a big step forward.. you will face many kinds of problems.. and obtain something that you never deal with and experience.. If taking a step backward.. you will wont gain anything.. but continue with your dull.. boring and old life...
Why not change your life to a better.. colourful and full of excitement?.. The decision is on your hand.. not ours.. not others.. BUT YOU..
Be who you are.. dare to it.. and overcome it... Don let it beats you since you never try to defend..
^^

第一类摩羯是很多人说的那种，没安全感，自信心不高，保守，古板，你的柔情攻势或许可以起到效果。日久生情几率会高。
第二类摩羯是那种只看重第一眼感觉的，没感觉，你付出再多只会招来反感。你需要征服她，而不是感化她。她需要充分的独立空间，你的盯人战术只会受到排斥。这类人通常不会日久生情，顶多感动而已。所以会给人感觉很无情。
两者的显著区别是：第一类摩羯女通常外表很冷，那不过是自我保护意思，如果你攻破了她的面具，她会显得很依赖。 第二类摩羯女通常很爱玩，社交很有手腕，可是，你了解越深，越会觉得她有一种很难接近的感觉，她们的心很难被走进的。

Which one is me?!? choose choose!!

im useles.. for u.. i know that..

yea... i don hav the rights to do so..
since wat i had done oso useless.. i rather than become the listener.. not trouble maker..

RM 10 is way much different with RM 2990!!

Omg.. nearly be cheated by the stupid shop that saying my cpu had spoilt and couldnt fix anymore.. swt... but... thanks to otc la.. haha.. he told me a shop near jln meru there.. i asked my mum go try luck... haha.. the most swt part is.. the cpu is ok.. nthg spoilt.. and... jux dusty.. SWT!!! Imagine i throw away tis old cpu by fixing it with only rm10 and BUY a NEW COMPUTER + CPU + stuff with rm 3000!!!! which means.. im gona waste rm 2990 for new computer if i throw away the old ones!!! haha.. Thanks to my mum la.. lurve u.. haha

Well.. today is post mortem.. jux over.. For me it jux might be the last.. and only time that i reli speak out for the whole year's activity.. Sorry guys.. if i reli make u all felt annoyed.. But i still stand for my own opinion.. If throughout this year i cant change u all.. then there isnt a reason for me to continue saying those 'bull talk' to u all.. no point oso... waste my saliva and energy to do so.. haha.. But im glad to be ya all's frens.. TIS IS A TRUE FACT!!! Muahaha.. knock knock peace~ ( Aiks... specially dedicated to boon tiong.. bangkia.. jo.. waikit.. wei shan.. susin... tiong tsien.. cy.. and ya all .. Dont be sad oh.. If we cant change them.. then let them be.. as long we dint feel sorry for wat we had done.. and wat we contribute for ourselves.. they dint appreciate.. let them be.. and proud with wat u had done with your own ability without help from others!!! )

Sincerely from reiz.. ^ ^

Feel weird lately..
Izit my 6th sense not 'chun'?.. or jux an illusion?..
People are getting 'faker' day to day..
Its like lack of trusts and believes amongst..
You all doesnt feel tired of it.. but i will!! Its kinda hard to mix with people who dont understand and not same 'frequency'..
Backstabbers.. unbelievers.. pls don do such stupid and childish act..
Be friends.. is using your heart to make friends with people.. not act infront of them...
Imagine.. Its like he/she is really an angel and bloomish with a pair or white furry wings infront... but when turn aside.. a 'devil' smile with a sharp knife like gonna kill u off the way!!
Swt.. this kinda friends. beware of them!! You might dunno when you are going to be slashed and dumped into the dustbin.. and pick you back when they NEED YOU ONLY..

Monopolize?! Distraction?! Not same frequency!? You are the good example if you play a good role.. yet vice versa.. if you arent have a good attitude and manner.. then pls shut up your mouth and stop influencing others from good to bad ones.. Be who you are.. where you belongs to.. and sincerely use your heart treat people nicely and with manners..

I believe... god will treat everyone fair and square.. because i experienced before.. Do you?..
Try not to think about yourself.. but other people's conditions, their opinions and visions..
If one day you have been betrayed or backstabbed by friends.. try to flash back.. izit you had done something like this before?.. If you arent.. thank you.. If you are.. CHANGE IT!!

Not to be self-centred... selfish.. and self-importance.. but be generous.. kind hearted.. and sincere!!!

A great decision.. comes with a big responsibility?!?.. Its on your hand.. ^^

情绪的波动
都是人类的正常反应
低落
近来也是变成一个潮流?
有时侯是我低落
有时变成他/她情绪化
每一天每一刻
大家的脾气情绪
都会因些许环境..人与人之间的因素
变本加厉
让人感到无奈
外表开心内心纳闷且悲哀的那种表情
应该是已达到境界的人才能做到吧?!
对不起..我不能..

想一想
你无忧住所 无虑挨饿
整天发恼着一些感情..友情..的问题
那..你应该觉得庆幸
或许我应该说
你必须感到幸福可以顾虑这些是非
因为
每当一分钟你正在哀怨这些问题
那短短的一分钟可能是宝贵的一分钟
给予那些挨饿痛苦的非洲贫穷孩儿不是想着这些琐碎问题而是想着办法继续生存下去
或者那些癌症的患者在那分秒地拼了自己的命..不向命运低头与病魔对抗着
或者突发事件车祸的人士..在差那间没想到会被赶紧地送进医院抢救
或者预测不到的天灾如风暴..海啸..地震的降临会在你身边发生
或者....许多的或者..

若有一天
你能预测到下一秒或一天会
车祸不省人事
天灾发生
患上严重疾病
等等事件..
你会再珍惜这一秒..这一天的时光吗?
往往人都是在这一刻才发现时间是真的真的很少..不够..
才后悔不珍惜当初的光阴..

为了家人
为了你心爱的人
潇潇洒洒的活下去
开开心心的过每一天
珍惜此刻此时身边的事物
何乐而不为呢?..

每一天的开始.. 一旦从梦中舒醒.. 那一天开心与否.. 便是你的抉择.. 不是别人..
这一秒和下一秒的悲哀... 也是你的选择.. 不是他人...
选择就是你的权力.. 你的责任..
I shud change tat spiderman said de... a big decision.. comes with a big responsibility.. right?!?.. haha.. cheh~
NO DOUBT OF THAT!! ^^

曙光的坚强勇气

当时间已变成期限
想挽回已太迟
只能
默默地期许着它慢慢的过着
好让自己想要做的东西赶快实现
一个决定和一个事实
彻彻底底地改变了
那个以前

往往拥有的人
都不会去在乎
不会去理会
一旦失去了才来后悔
那
已太迟太晚太慢

看见
那不想看见的情景
心
突然抽泣着
不知道是否对了
想说的
却不知如何是好
害怕
好像淹没了一切
懦弱
活生生地独吞了勇敢
变成了沉默
世界慢慢暗淡无色

放心
变成了唯一的出路
坚强
拼凑了无惧的力量
解脱
拥有的变成祝福
你的快乐
会是我的渴求
我的欣慰
让太阳
慢慢酝酿着
一道明亮曙光的路程

某人

笔

Whenever u saw anything happen, don ever deny it, because it is real and true thing.
Our eyes never bluff us for anything, yet, is our mind think oppositely and ignore it.
A lend of hand, a nice greeting, a warm concern, will not flush away in a person's mind, unless he/she is cruel.
Memories.. wont be deleted easily.. like whenever we want to..
It is a pathway.. an experience.. a feeling.. that no people will understand it at your own side..
You are the only person.. that know what had happened.. what had really happened.. as it is a part of you..
When one stands at a cross-junction.. he/she either can choose to turn left or right.. using other pathway.. to change their old thinking mind.. Some problems.. can be divided into many ways to solve it.. it is not neccessary the only way to solve it... Think out of the box.. you may found something that unexpected!!
Move straight forward or backward... is a good way.. It can test your determination and flexibility.. Sometimes... in a critical situation.. is just whether step forward bravely.. or take a step backward corwardly.. opps.. or should i say.. take a step backward doesnt mean coward.. is a best way to be flexible.. right?!?..
Yet.. many people doesnt realise that.. besides turning left.. right.. move front.. and backward.. there is another way too.. that is.. stand quietly and never move for even a step... Remain stationary.. sometimes it might helps..
When a teacher use a marker pen.. she draw a dot on the whiteboard.. what do you see on the board?... Many people will say.. 'a dot'... Yes.. It is a dot on the board.. Yet.. how many people realise the existence of the white board area besides the dot?..
Maybe.. for me.. i will choose standing on the cross junction is kinda stupid act.. but standing on that point.. i can see all direction.. i can see everything.. i can see what happened.. i can know that i never move before.. never.. and im still here.. What i just can do.. is standing far far away.. looking forward.. backward.. left.. and right side.. with a hope and sign.. If tired. just sit a while and rest.. after that only continue.. If hurt and pain.. maybe moody for a day or two?.. then promised myself must be happy back.. self-counselling.. that is the only thing can do.. when feel helpless.. undoubtly.. It is a life experience..
Im still standing here.. waiting a direction.. a decider to make.. so that i wont be lost.. again~



~It is hard.. sad.. hurt.. and suffer... while saw it..
Yet.. im not the controller anymore.. i just a passenger.. that passed by.. silently.. without knowing.. that im stil... standing at there.. very very long..

Lesson 1 : Dont done those stupid act and expect other wil appreciate it.
Lesson 2 : Dont be the generous one.
Lesson 3 : Whenever there is not your job.. Dont touch.. cox it might brings u trouble and full of anger with it.
Lesson 4 : Friends is friends, a good partner to share happy and difficult moment, but not work together.
Lesson 5 : Do appreciate people's help when you are been helped, its ok for you dint repay.. but at least not splash hot water on people.
Lesson 6 : I dare to say and i have reason to do so, cox that's me!
Lesson 7 : Nothing will gives u a big repay unless you work hard and do it with your heart!
Lesson 8 : Treat people with even and stand for their sides to think, ignore your selfishness and imagine that you are the people who been treated badly like that, it might will makes you understand why you cant do it!
Lesson 9 : This world is gonna end with people full of selfishness, self-centred, individualistic, materialistic and cruel, WHY cant people think to be the good ones, yet the bad ones?.. One day, if you been treated badly, you will point your fingers to others, yet try to think that did you also one of the selfish bully?

I might be the stupid one.. i might be the kepo one.. i might be the troublemaker, yet i have the heart and passion and never act, do you have that?..

(sorry if i had make you feel annoyed, the lessons above is based on individual's opinion.. ) ^^

无所事事 ^^

时间
证明一切命运拼盘中的一切
泪水
代表内心永远的永远
每一天
象征着期待它到来的期待
风声
犹如潇洒里带着不舍的潇洒

这一切的一切..
代表着永远里的永远..
象征着期待中的期待..
犹如潇洒里的潇洒..

当
一切 + 永远 + 期待 + 潇洒
会等于我要的答案吗?..

希望如此
期盼那样
反照过去
奢望未来

若
希望 + 期望 + 反照 + 奢望
它的答案会是我所寻找的吗?
_________________________________

"我不想问
也不想回头知道
只把祝福
留在街角" - 取自 : 戴佩妮 '街角的祝福'

Bored~

JUST A DROP BY.. ^^.. wish... that my friends can get a good result.. for their mid term..
well.. its quite easy to ask ppl study.. but dint motivate myself.. Yet.. im stil trying to do so..
haha..

Exam not yet start.. but i already wanted to have a holiday.. ish.. not good not good at all!!.. focus focus.. lolx..

Any information.. will be updated after exam i think.. tchaoz..

Today.. suppose me be the one who celebrate for her.. yet.. i dint do so..
Morning woke up felt very moody.. don have the mood to eat anything n do anything.. like a dead corpse.. stupid weather... it makes me sick...
Tears utterly drops... when im revising my physic.. those information i cant remember and memorize at all.. stressed...
she asked me to go take my brunch (short form for breakfast and lunch ^^).. mayb worry bout my sick.. but i still dont feel wana have it.. decided to grab a bread to eat.. thats all.. tat time tears still continued like flowing water.. she nagged me.. said me must be brave..
Suddenly.. i dono where comes my courage.. i decided to tell her.. well.. as usual... u noe de la.. when talked to her... my tears.. uncontrollable and cant stop.. ^^
the surprise part.. she dint scold me.. yet.. she told me many many many things.. tat unexpected things.. tis time.. i really relief..
i really awaken.. i really really do.. Thanks to her..

Maybe im not brave enough.. im not dare enough to do so.. yet... i hope u wil noe my appreciation and love to u...
Happy Mother's Day!!!

I wil try.. don worry.. It needs time.. to do so..
I want and i Will BE!!!

moody mode

after all.. i am stil who i am..
at the beginning from now..

ISH... Stressed out...

Ish... C2p...
our class got the 'class termuram' for 5 consecutive times..
Well.. i thought we already cleaned it nicely.. the notice board already replaced with blackboard... Miss Lim summore told us that we wont get the 'award' again since we already changed the board behind.. but den... who knows?.. We got AGAIN.... Not fair not fair !!!
Another one.. the teacher.. aiks.. how come har?... i stil couldnt find a suitable answer that she can teach form 6 students.. I know its kinda rude n not manners if talk like that.. but... honestly.. before that i still can stand with her.. listen to her teaching patiently... but now.. sorry.. Im not... I really cant stand her teaching ways... is like.. err... a real... can talk.. and speak reference book..
pek chek'ing bout how to save my maths subject from failed again..
I DON WAN FAILED!!
aiks...
wei... who can give tips bout this year's STPM exam paper... gimme gimme.. muat chun de oh.. lolx..

早晨那清新的空气和烟雾
像一层层的保护层
弥漫了四周围
感觉清新舒爽
仿佛你对我一样
那么的细心呵护着我

乏黄的落叶
渐渐凋落在那原本空虚无人的马路上
也增添了些许色彩
比想像中更美丽
片片不起眼的落叶
像是一句短短及不起眼的祝福或安慰
代表着你对我的关心
都已足添满了我的心里

冰冷的风吹起
象征着乌云满天即将到来
雷声落雨的预兆
一旦狂风暴雨之后
灿烂的太阳慢慢射出无限光芒
照亮大地
温暖了整个世界
所以吵闹争风吃醋及冷漠对待都是家常事
若没有些许吵吵闹闹的事
那岂不是很平淡乏味?
^^

*还记得我说过 '当某人越吃醋,这表示她/他在某时候..不知不觉地提升了自己对他/她的爱了?'

改变失败的自己

窗外的雨水滴答滴答地响着
而我却不知从何时坐在凳子上
看着那粒粒水珠的模样
而发了比平常不一样的呆
心里也觉得很不自在
想要哭的感觉又来了
但我死命忍着
就是不要让你知道我的伤心
我的内疚
我那无奈及害怕的极端

但
每当我生气了
那刻的我也后悔了
因为
我就是那么的脆弱
那经不起考验的心灵
那舍不得的感觉
顿时把我打败了
彻彻底底地输了这一盘棋

对不起
我那无知的动作
抱歉
我那天真的想法
谢谢
你给予我心灵上的安慰
感激
你的体谅及鼓励

我
不是百分百的人
也不是完美主义的人
我
只是一个平凡的人
一个不起眼的女孩

想要改变自己
但又失败了
那个小气和叛逆
几时才能消失呢?
唉~无奈~

*想要改变却失败的自己

...

Well.. march is gona end and april comes...
we stil got bout 6 months to go b4 trial..
yet.. my class still in relax mood.. wakaka..
hw getting heavier and heavier.. activity getting more and more..
reli gona crack my brain to find a space for saving all those information and delete useless data..
although i know wat the chapter talks bout and how to ans the exercise.. i stil cant remember it if i proceed to next chapter.. is like.. err.. old files deleted from my 'computer' in order to saved the latest data information... ish~~
but im enjoying my day in skul everyday.. crap with friends.. chit-chatting.. and asking solution whenever i dono that question means..
Well.. since the maths teacher........ is unable to teach me well.. im trying to find solution myself.. wakaka... hope that i wil get thru it.. haha

Frustrating bout Study.. haha.. Lalalal

untitled

Sometimes...
when u moody..
don listen to emo song...
cox it wil cause u more moody...
~~

无题的文章

期待
每一个时刻
每一个时机
每个机会的到来..

相处
虽然很短暂
但很珍贵
很复杂
但很幸福

你放心
我会好好的过
因为
我已醒了
悲伤的我已不在
而存在是幸福及开心的我

谢谢
给予我回忆
给了我希望及鼓励的人
谢谢
给我一切一切的人

欠你回忆及一切一切的人

笔

一线之差..

近来..
脑海里只有两首歌旋转着..
-Taylor Swift's Love Song
- 周杰伦和温岚的"祝我生日快乐"

虽然是旧歌... 可是却有着一种感觉..那..就是...想要听..(哈哈..别想歪了..)

朋友一直问我为何我写的部落格这么emo~好像有事情似的..嘻嘻..
放心.. 我没事!!! 真的真的没事!!
只是..为你们叹气哦~
看见别人有了她.. 就会想要一个她..
碰见别人有个他...就发现自己是这么的一个人..

想救她从过去..很难..但..不要放弃.. 若是你要的..就加油哦!!

*爱与好感..只是一线之差... 我都不了解.. 你了解吗?..

有空的话..去听听那两首歌吧.. 嘻嘻...

寄予悲伤及无奈的人

致: 悲伤且无奈的人

当天使给予你一个幸福.. 它也会带走你的悲伤过去..
厌倦..失去..乃是平常我们都会有的..
但..
与其伤心地过日子..不如开心地去享受每一天.. 每一刻..每一秒..


当你开心..周围的朋友都会感受到..
你伤心..死党会因你而悲哀..
不要认为你是孤独的.. 因为你只是存在在你认为孤单的世界里..
想开了..你就会发现.. 你其实活在一班关心你的朋友的圈子里..

每个人都想被爱..被疼.. 被关心.. 我也不例外..
那只能怪..时机..缘分不对咯!!.. 嘻嘻..

终



想被疼..被爱..被关怀的人 笔

valentine

Valentine

a day.. tat shud be memorable. happy moment.. for every couples...

for singles..

oso can have a precious moment.. with those single friends..

For those people..

who confessed successlly.. congratz ya!!

Yet

for those confessed but dint work out..

don give up..

you will find your true love one day!!

HAPPY VALENTINE"S DAY!!! EVERYONE

*If you are happy ... and have a memorable things everyday.. den means everyday oso a happy valentine's day!!!*

Tick tock tick tock.. Its over~~

Wohoo~ Time passed by like pipe water.. haha..
1 week ago.. i still dreaming and hoping that cny comes faster so that i can have a nice holiday and full-filled with angpau operation plan and gathering with my gangs.. pals..
and now.. its all over..


From the 2nd day of cny (tats tuesday) til sunday.. i had gathered with my old gangs n new pals..
We still the same.. nothing much difference.. among you all.. and me..
Gap.. is a common thing.. dint see u all for such long.. once gather together.. the first thing and topic that we can talk.. of course about our study.. our life.. haha.. and no doubt.. those gf bf topics..


Now.. Cny aledi over... im gona back to my normal life.. study.. quite suffer when gona start schooling.. gona wake up at 6... study from 7 smthg in the morning til 1 pm.. Yet.. its quite fun go back school.. cox got new craps!!! wakakak...
Although we are far away.. we arent together all the days... yet.. we still the same 'we'.. our heart never loss and.. never break apart..

All the best to you all.. and Better don forget me will do!!! hahaz...
Thanks for the gathering ya !!!

Sometimes.. Things aint need to tell so that ppl will beg on u..
This is a common sense ques & ans..
Look around u.. u sure feel it..
Ppl doesnt do that if u dint do that..
Ppl doesnt feel that if u dint feel liddat..
Ppl aint think that if u dint thought of that.. or shud i say u nvr thought of it oso..
I don mind.. i don care.. bcox i cant change that.
Im angry im guilty.. bcox im doin liddat...
Yet... when there is a reason to do so.. i wil do it as well..
thanks for the help.. sorry for the disappointment.. and those feeling...

p/s : IM A GOOD FREN YET A BAD FREN AS WELL...

Tis month.. many things happened...
1st~ Mf is not around... she is in colorado.. she wont bak for cny.. sob.. miss her..
2nd~ Dear ivy oso has her training in PAngkor Island.. oso wont bak for cny... sob..
3rd - I cut my hair d!!! even shorter.. haha.. but many said quite nice.. good comments.. lolx..
4th - Skul reopen.. not fun at all!!! when teacher teaches... but fun when crap wif frens.. wakaka..
5th - my burfday!! thx for those ppl celebrated n wished me!!
6th - vulgar words r spreading n mushrooming seriously.. pls stop it!! thx.. for those considerate ppl... shut up.. for those inconsiderate mean ppl...
7th - many seniors looking for work.. some bcame teacher.. some bcame promoter.. not bad.. keep go on!!!
8th - tension time!! cox cny is coming soon!!.. wakaka. angpau angpau.. n eat eat.... lolx.. reunion dinner..
9th - im so sorry for my frens who... bla bla bla... shhhh....(secret)... lolx..
10th - do u see a teacher straight asked students don attend to skul when the students wan to take a permission for bak early?!?.. if no~ ask me.. im the students that been asked to not attend!!! lolx..

THE END ~

p/s : when u r in love.. pls love urself more than she / he loves u.. mux left 40 % for ur own.. cox.. if u jump deeply.. u wil be hurt more badly.. unless.. u reli reli reli x 1000 confirm that he/she r ur true ones!!!

Nice burfday!!!!

7 dec 2009 ( WED ) ~

-went back to secondary school to see my junior's performance with alex.. wey kiat.. siau san.. michelle.. pei boon.. choy yee.. and shu ying them..

- after that.. went back to ku.. to find huishin to celebrate her 18th burfday.. n my 19th burfday.. lolx.. and guess wat.. i got a shoe!!!! LEVIS!!! Thanks to ss... bought it for me.. its reli nice..

My lovely shoe~

10th JAN 2009 ( SAT ) ~

- Today is my birthday!!!
- 12am, 1st sender of greeting is from siau san!! but b4 tat oso got ppl greet me as well.. haha.. after that continue with leongchin's msg.. ah ben's... ee leen's.. etc etc..

- 8.30 pm.. went to station 1 celebrate with my high skul frenz.. happy.. haha.. cox.. err.. got so many ppl celebrate for me.. and~.. i've got a cheese cake !! wohoo~.. but ate some only.. full~.. kakaz..

- Now.. sincerely thanks to all my frenz below to celebrate for me.. Thanks a lot!!! :

siau san.. michelle.. alex.. weykiat.. huishin.. sze yin.. lee sin.. sze pei.. han loong.. thong chin.. pei boon.. shu ying.. choy yee.. ah ben.. yy.. piekying.. bangkia.. waikit.. koktai... chikun.. jj.. wenqiang.. wengkit.. siauman.. nel.. choryau.. chriex.. sze chiex.. chze hsien.. chia heng.. otc.. weiyoong.. chung guan.. kee voon.. tiong tsien.. zhi zhong.. jocelyn..wahda.. step son.. sheng yu.. edmund.. jun xiang.. brian aka choppy.. meijee.. sway.. soon poi.. han loong.. ozz.. chee yong.. kai wen.. sin yee.. botakchin.. debbie.. etc etc..

( if i forgotten ur name.. sorry oh.. not purpose.. don sad.. lolx.. grow older edi shud be a bit sot sot~ hahaz.. )

-anyway.. thanks guys.. reli thank u a lot a lot.. tis is a great burfday for me!! thanks.. hope my wishes will come true... picture wil be updated soon~.. not many oso lar.. haha..

Cheesecake bought by bangkia~.. lolx.. thanks..

moody.. sad

today..
im moody..
bcox of 1 thing...
drunk... alcohol.. vomit.. that's all..

~END~

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Lolx.. quite true wat... wakaka..
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
Go test ur personality if feel free..
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Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Goodbye 2008!! Hello 2009!!!

2008 jux over.. which means... already become Last year!!!
Yesterday 2008 dec 31st i went to have a drink with friends, YY.. Nel.. ah Ben.. Kit and Chriex.. at The C-vitas, Bukit Tinggi..
Well.. the restaurant.. nice.. seems high class.. but service really sxxxs... Kit ordered a combo set.. the waiter dint jot down.. we already asked more than twice to reconfirm it... but.. those waiters... besides a word 'sorry'... summore said 'we are quite busy... so sorry~~' swt... 11.25pm started to ask.. til 12.05am.. finally the waiter went to check and tell us he dint jot down.. OMG!!
Okay.. Fine~.. already 2009 wat!! don mind.. wait for that stupid set then ss for a while.. talked crap.. and met my pbsm friends, tomato.. Lolx.. He had a gf i think.. quite pretty... kekez.. not bad wat.. got a gf ! !
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Below is a short brief bout last yr..
2008
January - worked as part time at JJ bukit raja.. Quite fun but tired with those reality discrimination and prejudice
February - Happy new yr i think.. Lolx.. Angpau month.. Sure happy wat!!
March - Got my spm result.. Sad cox dint get what result i want.. but i still feel happy for my add maths!! Mr Lim!! dint disappoint u!! although i dint concentrate in ur class.. kekez...
April and May - Busy applying college scholarships... Well.. Im quite happy that i've got the sinchew's full scholar for me to pursue event management course at sunway college.. but still.. due some factors and reasons.. i dint take it.. Yet this gave me a chance to take experience when interview.. Finally i choose Form 6...
Jun - School reopen!! Busy with fees.. study... extra-corricular activities.. Damn tired.. but enjoyable~~ Lolx..
July - Ow week in this month.. Well.. not as scary as what i think la!! Kekez.. Jux enjoy it will do~
August - Busy with those club interviews.. so tired.. mostly every week and every day stay back at school to wait for interview.. Phew~ exhausted month!!
September - AGM started!! Club agm... bla bla bla.. Feel quite nervous when had those AGM.. cox.. many students applying for higher post in order to get points.. All these nearly let me feel wana giving up everything.. But at last dint oso.. hehe.. bcox of frens..
October - Hmm.. (thinking..).. u never imagine how terrible those students are when got those higher post.. Before AGM.. they seem so passionate... active.. and eager to do well in organising activites.. Once after AGM.. They turned into devil i think.. All showed lazy.. irresponsible acts.. TIS IS WHAT REALITY ARE!! This month oso busy with seniors farewell party.. exhausted.. but im happy with all of it!!
November - MTE farewell party.. Im the head of this activity.. stressful.. lack of confident.. Scared.. but.. at least i ended it with nice and enjoyable ending.. (hate somebody likes to destroy the feeling of happiness.. stu~).. and this month keep on extra class during holiday.. aiks.. cant imagine next yr.. opps.. i mean this yr 2009 gona hav how many extraaaa class.. lolx..
December - Wakaka.. Holiday!! but stil got tuition tuition tuition.. aiks.. kekez..

- THE END -

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A new year comes..
A new hope begins..
May all of us.. Having the same spirit.. same courage.. same strength to continue our journey..
In order to achieve the success and achivement we dreamt for..
Jia you to all my frens.. Gambateh to all my pals.. and Work hard to my gangs!!

May all of us stay healthy.. wealthy and happy in this year 2009!!!!!!