sighs..
now.. is october..
1st..im wondering.. how im gona live after this month... or what im gona do after my big 'war'..
my heart is like a vase.. spoilt.. and broken.. once getting trial result.. its was totally same like my midterm result.. 2 pass 2 failed.. SIGHS again~~ i think my teacher kinda feel shocked and disappointed on me..
Thinking.. why ppl can get such such.. CRAZY.. BIZZARE result but i cant?.. why ppl play more than me but they can get good results than me?.. aiks.. sometimes.. i wish that 100% it was a fate.. a fate than ppl are born with different genes and something called BRAIN heritage.. so that i can convince myself.. 'OH.. Izit liddat?.. No choice.. heritage and fate dislike me!! )...den i wont blame over myself... hahahha...
2nd... I wonder when is my deathline.. haha.. recently there are too many disaster happened around... last few days ago.. mum suddenly asked me that after 40 or 50 yrs... how is my generation and next generation life?
10 yrs ago.. a thief robbed a woman's bag... kinda small case.. and doesnt cause any big deals for us.. but now.. a thief snatch ppl's bag and results a death case... omg... kinda horrible.. and serious..
That's why mum said.. until my age getting older... the society is getting worser.. human are getting complex.. and hard to predict who are the good one and bad one.. SIGHS AGAIN~~~
Lolx..
i think.. after this week.. im not gona online for a long long time..
So guys.. don miss me ya!! (lolx... sorry if im ss'ing myself.. )
and.. wish me luck for u all and for myself.. GAMBATEH!! STPM student.. jia you!!!
May god will bless us and give us strength to continue our journey and strive for the best!!! ^^
Chaoz
