Bored~

JUST A DROP BY.. ^^.. wish... that my friends can get a good result.. for their mid term..
well.. its quite easy to ask ppl study.. but dint motivate myself.. Yet.. im stil trying to do so..
haha..

Exam not yet start.. but i already wanted to have a holiday.. ish.. not good not good at all!!.. focus focus.. lolx..

Any information.. will be updated after exam i think.. tchaoz..

Today.. suppose me be the one who celebrate for her.. yet.. i dint do so..
Morning woke up felt very moody.. don have the mood to eat anything n do anything.. like a dead corpse.. stupid weather... it makes me sick...
Tears utterly drops... when im revising my physic.. those information i cant remember and memorize at all.. stressed...
she asked me to go take my brunch (short form for breakfast and lunch ^^).. mayb worry bout my sick.. but i still dont feel wana have it.. decided to grab a bread to eat.. thats all.. tat time tears still continued like flowing water.. she nagged me.. said me must be brave..
Suddenly.. i dono where comes my courage.. i decided to tell her.. well.. as usual... u noe de la.. when talked to her... my tears.. uncontrollable and cant stop.. ^^
the surprise part.. she dint scold me.. yet.. she told me many many many things.. tat unexpected things.. tis time.. i really relief..
i really awaken.. i really really do.. Thanks to her..

Maybe im not brave enough.. im not dare enough to do so.. yet... i hope u wil noe my appreciation and love to u...
Happy Mother's Day!!!

I wil try.. don worry.. It needs time.. to do so..
I want and i Will BE!!!

moody mode

after all.. i am stil who i am..
at the beginning from now..

ISH... Stressed out...

Ish... C2p...
our class got the 'class termuram' for 5 consecutive times..
Well.. i thought we already cleaned it nicely.. the notice board already replaced with blackboard... Miss Lim summore told us that we wont get the 'award' again since we already changed the board behind.. but den... who knows?.. We got AGAIN.... Not fair not fair !!!
Another one.. the teacher.. aiks.. how come har?... i stil couldnt find a suitable answer that she can teach form 6 students.. I know its kinda rude n not manners if talk like that.. but... honestly.. before that i still can stand with her.. listen to her teaching patiently... but now.. sorry.. Im not... I really cant stand her teaching ways... is like.. err... a real... can talk.. and speak reference book..
pek chek'ing bout how to save my maths subject from failed again..
I DON WAN FAILED!!
aiks...
wei... who can give tips bout this year's STPM exam paper... gimme gimme.. muat chun de oh.. lolx..

早晨那清新的空气和烟雾
像一层层的保护层
弥漫了四周围
感觉清新舒爽
仿佛你对我一样
那么的细心呵护着我

乏黄的落叶
渐渐凋落在那原本空虚无人的马路上
也增添了些许色彩
比想像中更美丽
片片不起眼的落叶
像是一句短短及不起眼的祝福或安慰
代表着你对我的关心
都已足添满了我的心里

冰冷的风吹起
象征着乌云满天即将到来
雷声落雨的预兆
一旦狂风暴雨之后
灿烂的太阳慢慢射出无限光芒
照亮大地
温暖了整个世界
所以吵闹争风吃醋及冷漠对待都是家常事
若没有些许吵吵闹闹的事
那岂不是很平淡乏味?
^^

*还记得我说过 '当某人越吃醋,这表示她/他在某时候..不知不觉地提升了自己对他/她的爱了?'

改变失败的自己

窗外的雨水滴答滴答地响着
而我却不知从何时坐在凳子上
看着那粒粒水珠的模样
而发了比平常不一样的呆
心里也觉得很不自在
想要哭的感觉又来了
但我死命忍着
就是不要让你知道我的伤心
我的内疚
我那无奈及害怕的极端

但
每当我生气了
那刻的我也后悔了
因为
我就是那么的脆弱
那经不起考验的心灵
那舍不得的感觉
顿时把我打败了
彻彻底底地输了这一盘棋

对不起
我那无知的动作
抱歉
我那天真的想法
谢谢
你给予我心灵上的安慰
感激
你的体谅及鼓励

我
不是百分百的人
也不是完美主义的人
我
只是一个平凡的人
一个不起眼的女孩

想要改变自己
但又失败了
那个小气和叛逆
几时才能消失呢?
唉~无奈~

*想要改变却失败的自己